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I will not allow myself nor anyone else tell me that I cannot do something

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  • welcome harvey- nikke's story
    Amazingly, I delivered my sixth baby Saturday September 14th at 12:24 am. I was in the hospital majority of the day on the monitor with nothing happening. I was sent home at about 9:45 pm. Starting contracting consistently the moment we walked out the hospital. We drove all the way to our place, which is about 30 from the hospital, at a good moment of the day. Got to the house, we fed the kids, I took a shower to see if I could calm the contractions and that didn’t happen. I constantly updated my husband on how severe the contractions were and keeping in mind how far apart they were. He jumped in the shower and by that time I knew and decided that it was time to make my way back to the hospital. I asked Tony in the midst of his shower if I should just go or wait for him and get all the kids out the bed. My instincts responded instead and I made my way to the hospital, and told him I would call him. As my contractions grew closer and stronger, I prayed and breathed through each one calmly. I got the hospital at about 11:25. Went to L&D saw the nurse that had just dismissed me and told her that I was really hurting. Now, when I left the hospital I was 2-3 cm. When I got there, I was 6-7 cm. My plan was to have a water birth, so as they were prepping the tub and waiting for the midwife, I allowed my body to be in complete control. When the midwife arrived about 20-30 minutes later, I was 9 cm and feeling the urge to push. The tub was about 1/4 full and contractions were super close and super strong and all I could do at this point was push. My midwife told me that it would feel a lot better to push through the contractions than hold back and try to just breathe through them. AND was she RIGHT! I pushed 3x before my water broke. After that I pushed about 3 more times, somewhat constantly with short breaths in between and my baby boy came shooting out!
    I never thought I had the strength to allow myself to do something so amazing. Regardless to having 5 prior, I was always scared of the pain, I didn’t believe in myself to get through it without medication. But with all that I’ve conquered…especially the last 11.5 years, even in the years that I didn’t think mattered, this was the one thing I told myself that if I can achieve I can do anything. I DID IT! I did it wonderfully! From this moment I will not allow myself nor anyone else tell me that I cannot do something. I will not convince myself that I am not good enough nor will I second judge my strength and ability to achieve whatever I want.

    Welcome Harvey Ray Wright! You are beautiful and we are excited to finally have you here!!!
    God has truly blessed me and my family. The amazing things we can do. The amazing things women can do.  Believe Always!!!

    ~ Nikke Ray Wright on the birth of Harvey Ray